Wednesday, January 4, 2012

on moving on:

I release you
I release you
I release you
I will leave you behind
I will leave you behind me
I am free
I release me
I release me
I release me from you
I take my heart back
You no longer have my heart
You no longer have my heart
You no longer have my heart

I feel the swelling of my belly
My chest cannot open wide enough
My heart cannot fling wide enough
The gates to the cage of my heart
I want to be free
Reach deeper
Reach deeper
I want to be free
I will move on from you
Open hands heal frozen feet
Shackles fall from feeble wrists
I have freed myself from my own prison
You cannot have my heart back
I will push you out of me
Like a dead fetus from my belly
Like a bad dinner from my stomach
You are a scream in my throat
You will no longer choke me
I will release you
I will scream until there is nothing left
I will scream until you are no more
You are not mine anymore.
I can feel you heavy in my belly
In the bowels of my gut
I will consumed you no longer
I release you.
I release you.
I release you.
I will pass you through me
Finally.
I am free.

I claim my freedom.
I put new where old has gone.
I will walk forward from this moment.
God will hold my hands.
He will lead me on from you.
I will leave you behind me.
I consent to leave you behind me.
I consent to look behind me no longer.
I will no longer live in the past.
I will no longer live in the past.
I will push you out of me.
I am free.

You are free of me.
You are free of my love.
I do not go easily.
But yet I go.
The Lord has spoken.
So let it be.

Push
Push
Push
I will push you out of me.

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